in_fer_til-ity

"Heart Wombs" by me 2012 :)

Epiphany...yes that's what it was. A moment of all-consuming enlightenment. Oh how to describe it so as to capture it. Well...let's start at the beginning.

Infertility; the side of the fence from which pregnancy looks way more enticing than it truly must be.

From 17 I knew I was infertile. Waking from my first of many long and detailed gynecological operations, I heard the surgeon trying to reassure my mum as he stated "she will never bare children..adoption will be her only option" The adoption option. Yeah riiiight! Yet, the non option of it all.

Tears fell....as my senses piqued..I shook off that GA in the beat of a broken heart... so sobering it was. To get off this merry-go-round has been my prayer ever since. 24 years later, I'm ready to fill these empty arms. :)

..to be continued.....